God Sized Dream

So, I'm reading this book Rhinestone Jesus by, Kristen Welch. It is the book chosen for a book study group at my church. I had no idea what I was embarking on when I started reading this book. I was actually expecting some kind of Christian fiction/historical fiction type book, like Redeeming Love by Francine Rivers. Instead, I got a raw encounter with a woman and her life turned God sized dream.

I am a procrastinator. We should have read through chapter 8 for our first meeting. I had only read through chapter 2. I had only scratched the surface, but I knew that I wanted to be a part of the discussion. I didn't expect a discarded dream to resurface. I didn't expect to cry. I didn't expect to start a blog about this journey. I didn't expect God to grab ahold of me today. But here I am.

So, what is this God sized dream that has resurfaced? To open a Christian School for the Deaf. It was done a couple years ago in Waco. It was only functional for 2 years before funds ran out and they had to shut the door. That was in WACO, people. I live in Houston. The Deaf hub is in Austin. That is where the State School for the Deaf is. To my knowledge, there is no other Christian School for the Deaf in Texas. With the number of Deaf people in Houston, Dallas, and Austin, there should be a Christian School for the Deaf option. This thought continues to tug at my heart and continues to scare me and leave me in a state of anxiety.

Within our discussion of Rhinestone Jesus, we read this passage:
     Do you have a dream today? Perhaps you're wondering if it's your dream or His dream for you. Here are some characteristics of a God-sized dream:

• It will be bigger than your capability.
• It will require hard labor. Even with modern-day medicine, childbirth is risky. Similarly, birthing a dream requires hard, long work. It won't be easy.
• It will look impossible. You won't have the resources, details, or all the answers. 
• There will be a big gap between  your yes and the reality of your dream. That space is God-sized. If you have all the answers, resources, funding - the perfect plan - it might be your dream, not His. But when you don't know all the details or have all the answers, it gives God rooms to show up.
•  It will require great dependence on God. If it fails, He receives the glory in your failure. and if it succeeds, He gets the credit. God-sized dreams serve two purposes: they grow the dreamer and they give God the glory. The dream starts with your small faith and ends with a mighty Savior. 

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Thank you for popping by. Before you close this page, will you please pray for me and this dream? I started this blog to keep track of my thoughts and the way God shows up through out this process, but I also stared this to hopefully get some visitors, prayer warriors, that will come along side of me to bring this dream and its process to God, even if only once. 

For where two or three gather in my name, there I am with them. Matthew 18:20. 

Thank you for gathering with me.